This forever alone gal has joined the band wagon of online dating. Ughhh I can't help but cringe every time. The very thought of even putting myself out there like that horrifies me. Partly because I have this perception that I'm too good for this and yes I am aware of how pretentious and snoody that sounds but its the truth. Another part of me feels like most online dating sights are swarming with perverts and seedy creepos. I mean come on guys, if a guy was really dateable then why would he need online help. I guess it goes back to the whole idea that typically when you like someone they are in some way unavailable.
I had no idea what I was getting myself into. I was adamant on never joining the lonely singles gathering, at least not so early on in my youth. So adamant that I continually mocked it to my girlfriends. I'm a hypocrite, great! I believe in and I still do, meeting people the old fashioned way. And its exactly that, meeting them and not some creepy bullshit of 'liking' someone behind a screen. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm still young and even though I haven't been blogging much lately and I seemed to have fallen off the face of the earth (you can thank university and the wealth of knowledge I continually *cough* gain *cough* for that), I still get out and socialise and kinda, sorta, not really in a super long time meet new people. I like to think that I still have options and that I don't have to resort or rely on technology to finding me a match.
Either way I downloaded the app Tinder. I have evaded this for sometime now. My friend seemed like she was benefiting much from it and she was raving on and on. She was relentless in pestering me to join, almost like cult people that have been brainwashed or jehovah's witnesses, same thing (*disclaimer* Sorry if I offended anyone, completely intended to be a joke). I was able to elude this because of the constant work load (thanks again uni) and my friend had told me how distracting it was. I'm definitely a sucker for distractions and shiny things. If procrastination could be my middle, first, and last name, well i'd probably also never get through the paper work to change my name. So I kept telling her that I didn't need any extra distractions and I promised her that I would get the app as soon as I finished all my assignments. Well my last assignment, ever! by the way, was yesterday. The same friend came over to my house tonight for a movie marathon. Over cheerleading, spirit fingers, and ridiculously good looking actors (I blame Bring it on: in it to win it Michael Copon *drool*) she reminded of the app.
So ladies and gentlemen, as of tonight I am part of the online dating world. But in my head I like to think that its not exactly online dating :/ just give me the benefit of the doubt. I quickly got a hang of it and it was well... interesting. I guess the idea of rejecting people is kinda mean but I quickly got over that and soon enough I was flicking through, rejecting without a blink of hesitation. But when it came to 'liking' someone. Well let's just say that it felt like you were putting yourself on the edge of a cliff. Literally a cliff hanger. You didn't know if that person was gonna like you back or not. Or what if they're weird. Or what if you guys don't get alone. Or what if you have nothing to talk about. You might as well jump off that cliff. I had come across a select few of guys that I thought were cute but then I would convince myself out of pressing that button. Finally I did it! I pressed the button. And the first thing that came up was that we were a match. What does that even mean?! I was so confused. Does that happen every time you like someone? (if only it was like that in real life) I didn't dare test out this theory. One like was enough for tonight. So I googled it and apparently it means that they like you back and you can start talking. As opposed to you liking them and they don't reciprocate but you can still contact them, this method weans out the weird awkward moments. So I was briefly relieved to know the guy I 'liked' 'liked' me back. But then I got to thinking. When you go into their profile it shows when they were last active. This guy was last active 15hours prior. I had only had the app for 3-4 hours. Therefore he couldn't have 'accepted' me. I have determined that this app is only making me more neurotic and that is definitely not something I need help adding to.
Well day one of the tinder experiment, all I can say is I really didn't know what I was getting myself into.
